OK, so I'm back on the wagon again....joined Weight Watchers with a friend. Look for updates soon! ;)

Bored Beyond Belief!

Bleh....

OK, I admit it....they got me...I was totally sucked into another reality TV show...but this time (unlike that unfortunate Survivor incident a few years ago) I was absolutely thrilled with the outcome! Kelly Clarkson is nothing short of amazing...I remember the first show I saw her on right after the narrowed it down to the final 10. I said immediately that she was going to win, and what do you know...I was right! Her single of "A Moment Like This" comes out on September 17th, I can't friggin wait!!

OK, you know what I love...I love it when someone reads my blog then sends me a lengthy email on how I am wrong for posting it...and I should revise...what I write here is my personal opinion, and I am not going to apologize for any of it...if you don't like it then deal with it or stop reading it.

I most recently received an email from eoachan8 (yahoo account name) who basically called me a freak and a flake for not wanting to gain and said all those people interested in losing weight are the freaks. Now, while his medication clearly needs adjusted, I will leave that up to his physician and I will just reiterate here, as I did in the entry below, please don't bother emailing me with your sob stories about how you are so great and gaining is the path to true enlightenment, blah blah blah...perhaps I was not quite as harsh in my former entry as I guess I should have been...so let me say it in small and simple terms for you, ALL GAINERS ARE FREAKS! There I hope you all got that. Now, if you want to talk about me to all of your friends and "warn" them about the horrible guy who is not into gaining then I say, PLEASE DO, then that will just be more freaks who will leave me alone, I'd actually appreciate it very much.

If you don't like what I am writing here then don't read it, if you respond to me via email please make it something worth my time to read, if you disagree with me that is perfectly valid and you have a right, since this is a public forum, to tell me so. However, regaling me with the virtues of gaining will really get you nowhere, and calling me the freak because I have opinions will only get you added to my public FREAK LIST along with eoachan8@yahoo.com.

I just realized that I do have something that I want to say after all....earlier this year I lost what I thought was my best friend, I won't go into the drama surrounding our "break-up", my close friends know the story and quite frankly I am really ready to put it behind me. As I said I lost what I thought was my best friend, but after long and careful examination and re-examination I have found that what I lost was actually a very sad and pathetic person who constantly took pleasure in my misfortunes and did everything in his power to keep me in those misfortunes as much as possible so he could "be there for me". It has taken me several months of reflection to realize just what a negative force he was on my life and how very happy I am that he is gone. Since we have not been friends I have gotten the greatest job of my life, gone back to school (and I'm doing quite well) and met some really great people, now I know it may be coincidence that all this has happened since we've not been friends, but I can't help but think not.

I said all that to give some background, because the thing that has hurt me and pissed me off the most about this situation is the fact that he caused me to doubt all my other friends, and wonder if they were true friends or not, just because he was a loser who is able to discard a friend of three years so easily, but I have realized that I do have many great friends who are my true friends and have stuck by me whether I was being an asshole or a saint...and I just wanted to tell them how much I really do love and appreciate them.

Steve, Chris, Cory, Darrell, Rob & Janelle, I love you guys and I just wanted to let you know that!

wow, it's been a while since I had anything new to say on this thing, and well, in fact I really have nothing new to say right now, just posting something cause it's been so long...school is almost over YAY! and I will be out for two weeks. Gonna go down to LA and spend some time with a few friends...really looking forward to that...otherwise it's the same old crap...life is pretty good...

it's occurring to me that I am not very good at keeping up with this thing...is anyone even reading it? I didn't think so...

and so begins another work week...for those of you who don't know, I work Wednesday thru Sunday, I spent the better part of my day off yesterday at CCSF trying to get registered for classes, but ended up missing orientation so now I have to go back today and attend one, but then I will be registered and classes start Monday...and I am really starting to get excited/scared about my return to College after a 4 year absence.