I just realized that I do have something that I want to say after all....earlier this year I lost what I thought was my best friend, I won't go into the drama surrounding our "break-up", my close friends know the story and quite frankly I am really ready to put it behind me. As I said I lost what I thought was my best friend, but after long and careful examination and re-examination I have found that what I lost was actually a very sad and pathetic person who constantly took pleasure in my misfortunes and did everything in his power to keep me in those misfortunes as much as possible so he could "be there for me". It has taken me several months of reflection to realize just what a negative force he was on my life and how very happy I am that he is gone. Since we have not been friends I have gotten the greatest job of my life, gone back to school (and I'm doing quite well) and met some really great people, now I know it may be coincidence that all this has happened since we've not been friends, but I can't help but think not.

I said all that to give some background, because the thing that has hurt me and pissed me off the most about this situation is the fact that he caused me to doubt all my other friends, and wonder if they were true friends or not, just because he was a loser who is able to discard a friend of three years so easily, but I have realized that I do have many great friends who are my true friends and have stuck by me whether I was being an asshole or a saint...and I just wanted to tell them how much I really do love and appreciate them.

Steve, Chris, Cory, Darrell, Rob & Janelle, I love you guys and I just wanted to let you know that!

wow, it's been a while since I had anything new to say on this thing, and well, in fact I really have nothing new to say right now, just posting something cause it's been so long...school is almost over YAY! and I will be out for two weeks. Gonna go down to LA and spend some time with a few friends...really looking forward to that...otherwise it's the same old crap...life is pretty good...